My Testimony

Happy new month to you all.

I wanted to blog about something completely different this weekend but I felt led to share my testimony. 

Exactly one year ago, I had what I tagged "the worst birthday ever", it didn't matter how hard my family tried to make it a happy one for me, they even surprised me with a birthday cake, managed to get me out of bed and we took some fun pictures, but I knew deep down in me that I was sad. I had so many reasons to be happy and thankful but somehow, I chose the opposite. I read sometime ago that "You are the only one who can make you happy – everyone else is just a bonus" and I agree completely.   

I had so much going on in my life and so many things had already happened that year that I could not help but cry (on my birthday). Let me feel you in on some of the reasons why I was crying my heart out on my birthday, a day that I was meant to be extremely happy and enjoy life. 

It so happened that someone betrayed my trust that year, I left a job a few days to my birthday, there was next to nothing in my account, I had my bags packed with the intention of moving to a new place and starting over (the thought of which scared me to death since I did not know if I was doing the right thing). 

You see, I was severely lonely and somewhat ashamed of myself, ashamed of the bad choices I had made, of falling short of people's expectations but still I acted like nothing had happened because I was afraid to show my honest emotion (Read it here).  It felt like I divorced myself from heartfelt laughter,  I was encouraging and advising people whereas I needed it more, sleep chose to elude me for many nights but I still felt the urge to hold it all together. I just did not see any reason to celebrate. 

But today, exactly one year after my supposed worst birthday, I look back and thank God, I'm thankful for the lessons the past taught me, I'm wiser because I have learned from my life, I'm glad I took that leap of faith, I appreciate the fact that God gave me the strength to start over, I have become a better person, I'm smarter because of my mistakes and have learned to "forgive myself for not having the foresight to know what seems so obvious in hindsight", I'm not yet a billionaire but I'm sure on the right path to becoming one, I'm happier because I have overcome the sadness I've known. God has brought some very wonderful people (or do I say angels in human bodies) into my life, I love my life and of course, now more than ever before, I love God, the One that chose to bless me even when I gave up on Him.

I just want to use this medium to say, dear God, thank you for giving me another chance.

Dear future, I'm ready.

P.S. Thank you for being a part of my beautiful life. God bless you real good.